Scared

I'm drunk
quite a good sort of drunk though
if ever there there were such a thing

I've been out
seen people
felt alone
but that's quite normal for me

and I drank
a lot more than they did
before I even arrived
but that's quite normal for me

and I've continued drinking
and it's four hours since I left
but that's quite normal for me

and the 5 hours
we all spent together
just compounded my frustration
and justified my isolation

and I know they are asleep
as I seek oblivion
but that's quite normal for me

and I know I will stop
when I'm sick or sick of it
but I know I've been sick for some time

and I know that soon
I will be scared
scared of this pain in my side
scared of this pain inside

Scared of tomorrow
Scared of not being drunk
Scared of everything
just
fucking
scared
but that's quite normal for me

ae
Aug 2005