The Nationwide Brain Removal Scheme

ah... I remember
this is how it works
the girl / boy thing
this is how we meet
in these shitholes that sell alcohol
for the same price as a small car
it's not that long ago that I
used to enjoy this
get excited around Wednesday just at the thought
of Friday night in town
excreting my latest mating call
to attract a female who was drunk enough to comply

something changed on the way to 28 though
I am no longer able to get involved in these rituals
in fact I find them quite horrifying
and I can't quite put my finger on why
maybe it's experiencing loss
and never coming to terms with it
maybe it's being used
and never understanding why
maybe it's self esteem
or the lack of it
maybe it's the constant drinking
that anaethetises all of the above

or maybe
just maybe
I cannot think of anything at all
to say to people
who quite obviously had their brain removed
a long long time ago

ae
May 2003