All I Ever Wanted

all I ever wanted
was to feel alright
nothing else
just to feel safe
wanted
loved
and I don't
and everything is so fucking complicated
that I feel I don't have a chance

I don't ever hurt anybody or anything
I don't have it in me
I just want to feel alright
but I never do
I never asked to be part of this battle
and I don't even know who the enemy is
but they keep coming at me
and winning

ae
Jul 2004