A Hug

Sometimes I just need a hug
I think of everything
I've fucked up

Some things are just too hard to bear
like waking up
or breathing this relentless air

I know I have nothing left
I did it myself
didn't need anyone else

Love is long gone
along with my health
darkness rages
within myself

And I'm almost convinced
that if that hug ever arrived
I would run for miles...

ae
Aug 2005