18 Months Later

I've been waiting a while now
18 months have passed
since that dreaded day
the day you took yourself away

and I'm still waiting to feel better
anticipating the recovery that everyone tells me about
longing for the day when I consider living
a better option than not

I've had enough of this acute naseau
self pity, hopelessness and gloom
feeling that everything means nothing
a feeling of impending doom

Having said that

I had all these ailments
whilst you were still here...

ae
Jun 2004